I feel.....

So distant to my best friend. I just need to say it already. my horoscope says:No matter how creative you feel today, it's not going to be that easy to charm your way through the current difficulties. In fact, if you attempt to push people too hard or too fast, something will have to give. Granted, the tensions can be played out through personal drama, but delays are merely symptoms of a deeper issue that also needs attention. Deal with any obstacles that come up now, for avoidance will only make matters worse.

And yeah it isn't easy. I feel like she says she's stressed and she says she's struggling, but in pictures and in her bulletins it seems like she's just fine without me. Like she doesn't need me anymore. I don't know. There are days where I, ME, I want someone to talk to. I needed her before,but now it's not so reassuring that she's there. Sometimes she wants to wait til later on at night to talk, but recently I've just been too tired to stay up til 12 or 1 or whatever. I liked it when she'd put things down just to talk to me. I mean I drop whatever I'm doing for her, yet she doesn't do the same. I understand that things aren't going her way at the moment, but damn that's life right? I mean I really want her to know how things are going with me, she doesn't know ANYTHING about what has happen for at least half a year. Maybe even more. I know things about her because I'm there. I AM THERE. where are you =/. things aren't the same without you. Sometimes I think you forget about me, but every time I do there's always something like dude wtf. I do miss you. dude. We need to talk SOOON. SOOON? when is soon. soon never comes because soon isn't soon at all. I don't even know when soon is. it sucks the opportunity to catch up is this weekend and I'm not going to be able to make it. shit. It's not being mad, or disapointed or anything. I'm so proud of you. One of the hardest workers I know. It's just sometimes I think we aren't even friends anymore. yeah best has been long gone for the longest time. and knowing that we've become distant I tend to stop missing you because hey you're happy. Obviously happy without me. And you know what it'll get better for you. all this school stress, guy problems, it'll dissapear Micah. Just keep doing what you're doing I love you best friend. I'm here.


"And it's great cause I noticed that you're happier, even if it ain't with me, you're living better."

Acceptance.

So lets talk about the weekend shall we? Friday was pretty fun. "All-Nighter" for fantastics. I don't think I've been to one really. It was funny. I came around 700 did some painting for a while. then til like 130 i chilled with ben ian jp amanda cindy clarissa*she was doing work.* and erika with a K ? i don't know lol. anyways it was funny just chillen and all that. then I realized everyone left that was there and I needed to help them. Oh did i forget I practiced dancing the couples dance with my partner. How fun... who am I kidding. It's pretty darn sad, but It's whatever. I'm okay with everything? I think. I'll leave it be because it's not going to lead anywhere. Well yeah. After that I helped paint and then went home which was suppose to be for 15 minutes. I later realized my auntie had work. so she was showering and getting ready til 4. I went back and we painted kinda a lot after that. I think we did good. There was only 4 of us too so it was pretty productive til 630. I totally wanted to knock out after that. i slept til 930 and went home for a bit then drove to the civic at 12. I needed to rest haha. We ran through the skit a couple times. I saw the Juniors skit and everything. It was great. I mean it was over the top basically. Yet I felt like there was something about our Class that just made things special. We had our stuff on par this year. Fantastics was coming earlier and we just wasted no time to learn and get things on check. I feel like no one slacked off this year. everyone put alittle heart in it i mean come on. It was great..... The night just was great in no time it was our turn. I think we lost all our games. I feel like not to be mean but Thuy jinxed us," WHEN WE WIN." but honestly Thuy is a great leader. All the officers are. I mean they did a better job than me when I was spirit leader freshmen year, dazed and confused and retarded. You can tell they put their all in what they did. And to find out after we did an AWESOME job, we lost by one point. deeeng. Hella deep man. but EVERY class did their part man. It was a great SHOW for everyone who came to see it. Nooo one class did bad. Everyone from every class has to have props. After fantastics was sooo iunno i was out of it. lets just say that I don't want to go into details haha it's too long to say. Other than that Everything was awesome Class of 09 you rock. 3 more months guys 3 more. Don't let it get to you yet (: