I feel.....

So distant to my best friend. I just need to say it already. my horoscope says:No matter how creative you feel today, it's not going to be that easy to charm your way through the current difficulties. In fact, if you attempt to push people too hard or too fast, something will have to give. Granted, the tensions can be played out through personal drama, but delays are merely symptoms of a deeper issue that also needs attention. Deal with any obstacles that come up now, for avoidance will only make matters worse.

And yeah it isn't easy. I feel like she says she's stressed and she says she's struggling, but in pictures and in her bulletins it seems like she's just fine without me. Like she doesn't need me anymore. I don't know. There are days where I, ME, I want someone to talk to. I needed her before,but now it's not so reassuring that she's there. Sometimes she wants to wait til later on at night to talk, but recently I've just been too tired to stay up til 12 or 1 or whatever. I liked it when she'd put things down just to talk to me. I mean I drop whatever I'm doing for her, yet she doesn't do the same. I understand that things aren't going her way at the moment, but damn that's life right? I mean I really want her to know how things are going with me, she doesn't know ANYTHING about what has happen for at least half a year. Maybe even more. I know things about her because I'm there. I AM THERE. where are you =/. things aren't the same without you. Sometimes I think you forget about me, but every time I do there's always something like dude wtf. I do miss you. dude. We need to talk SOOON. SOOON? when is soon. soon never comes because soon isn't soon at all. I don't even know when soon is. it sucks the opportunity to catch up is this weekend and I'm not going to be able to make it. shit. It's not being mad, or disapointed or anything. I'm so proud of you. One of the hardest workers I know. It's just sometimes I think we aren't even friends anymore. yeah best has been long gone for the longest time. and knowing that we've become distant I tend to stop missing you because hey you're happy. Obviously happy without me. And you know what it'll get better for you. all this school stress, guy problems, it'll dissapear Micah. Just keep doing what you're doing I love you best friend. I'm here.


"And it's great cause I noticed that you're happier, even if it ain't with me, you're living better."