I'm Thankful.

I'm thankful. For God,Family,Friends,My Life,Everything. But this year is so different from all the other Thanksgivings I've had. My brother Johnny is down south, my sister Karen with her boyfriends family this year, my other brother is with the "in laws" as usual but we were with our side of the family too. I mean it's usually like this every year. Except Johnny is here, Mish, Carleah, and wtf Mike was missing and he still lives here. I don't know man. I was just really not in the "Thanksgiving Mood." It's like an ordinary day. Nothing that special. The only cousins that were there are Junior Ryan Rommel Gail Noelle Rina Kristina Lin Rosie and the little kids. Junior Ryan weren't their usual selves because Junior was sick and Ryan was I don't know. He wasn't the same. Usually he makes everyone laugh. He's down in the dumps. They usually leave early to go to their moms side of their family after they eat with us. Kristina left for work and she's I think coming back home from Santa Cruz. Basically the only ones that were chillen were me Rina and Lin Lin. It's so not what I thought it would be you know? It's usually everyone all of us as a family just chillen falling a sleep watching a movie. This year just isn't the same. I don't know why. I felt so empty. I'm still thankful. Just don't understand why things weren't fun this year. No bonding no anything. I'm still thankful,
I love my Family. Just wish they were there when they need to be there =/.