The ones we can depend on?

friends? I finally opened my eyes for the first time in a while. I have more acquaintances than friends. I just don't see how I've known some of these people since 7th grade and we aren't "close" friends. This popped up one day while 2 "friends" were in my car and were talking about something. and I ask if it was something serious and you can always tell me thing because you know I'm there for you and I tell you guys things too! And like this person goes it's cool my "school" friends don't have to know about it. And like I don't know. We chill at least 2 times a week and I'm considered a school friend. We chill often and I'm a school friend. I just don't get it. I don't know if I'm going overboard with this topic, but seriously. Some friends come and go and some stay and I thought the ones that have stayed should have known I thought of them as close. I just don't know. Realizing these things shows me who really is real and who is not. And I'm narrowing it down to who can actually be real to me. Unless you consider me fake. And trust me. I doubt I've been fake. I've been the same guy since forever and people see that in me. I've made changes that are for the good and not the bad. And you know what? I like it like that. I'm a good person. People see that in me. Where's my best friend when I need her =/. I'm content right now. Like I'm still happy! I really am. Just really disappointed at the same time. I'm not putting myself down, but just looking over that mountain that's been blocking the view of that sunshine.